PSA for the day

I don't know how to kill it

I want to make my own history go away. I don't know how. I would like to learn a mnemonic for forgetting.
The time has come to drag out old skeletons, bury them at the crossroads. Kill them deader than they already are.
I will find a ritual. There has to be some magic to suit this purpose.

I'm thinking of changing my name.

PANGRAM !

Pack my box with five dozen liquor jugs

Findhorn

http://www.findhorn.org/whatwedo/vision/history.php

Intentions

Conversation with RR got me thinking about how I have come to be and have all that which is currently my "life". I realize how much of my life has been unintentional and reactive.

That must change.

***I intend to be surrounded by good friends / family in a community that I help to create. I believe this community will have very green and sustainable habits. Collectively, we will create abundance and help each other to live to our full potential.
***I will have a partner in unconditional love, support and to share life's marvels.
***I will make my inner voice kinder toward myself and others, so as to to attract kind thoughts and people into my life. I will learn to dispel thoughts and acts that are hurtful, learn from them and turn them into something positive.
***I will finish my education; not for money or career but for wholeness. I think it would be wonderful to have a PHD and raise chickens and live off the land.
*** I will have a legacy, I will leave the world a better place for my being here, and give something beneficial to the future.

"All doubt, despair, and fear become insignificant once the intention of life becomes love, rather than dependence on love" - Sri da Avabhas

"Your life is the garden,
Your thoughts are the seeds
If your life isn't awesome
You've been watering the weeds." - Terry Prince

Amazingly detailed fever dreams

Sunday i woke up with a sore froat and the shivers.
My dream still fresh in my head was incredibly detailed and stupid.

It started with a car ride with my stepmom to go look at a temporary room for me to rent . We were in Michigan and I fell asleep on the ride. When we got to the house, it had recently snowed and I recall the smell of snow on pines and scooping up a fresh handful off one of the branches on the porch. The house was a big victorian place with lots of rooms and lots of levels.
There were a few tennants already living at the house, professionals about my age and they all had big dogs there were bins of dog toys in one of the living rooms. The lady who owned the house worked as a botanist for a seed company and worked on hybrids. One of the other tennants' dogs was a wolfhound mix. She was bigger than radar with a wavy chocolatey coat and blond eyebrows and beard. the house had a hot tub and sauna in a pine paneled outbuilding. I explained that i was planning to live part year there and part year here and commute with my job.

When we left, we walked through the lobby of a very posh hotel or clubhouse. There was a big grand piano in front of a curved credenza covered in plaques and awards. The pianist was playing songs form the score of 'The Music Man' loudly and at a fast tempo.

We started riding our bikes back to the car - to save time. I was riding through an unfamiliar city that became increasingly more urban and less bikeable. Turning left at a five-way intersection I was struck by an older brown car that did not yield. I wasn't badly hurt and walked my bike to the side of the street. The city was gloomy and dense, with fat people driving jazzy chairs on the sidewalk.
I realized that we were much further south - near Holland and wasn't sure why we had driven so far in the first place.

I Makes Lolcat

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The red room theatre

Dream:

I'm in an acting company rehearsing for our new play.
We assemble the stage and seating area where we are going to perform. It a small antique modular building called the red room. The red room has raised theater seating and curtains and a proscenium but it is in miniature, and all folds up like a pop up trailer to go along when the show's over.
I'm in the leading role in this performance and I'm done up like an elderly Victorian lady. I'm working with someone who does the wiring to get some of the lamps on the stage to work.

dream symbols

In no particular order, here are some of the symbols/ items from recent dreams.

Giant - young kinda homely guy about 7' tall with frizzy hair wearing a button down shirt. He was walking into a convenience store. He drove an old tanker truck.

Bike - handlebars were stolen; so was skateboard

House - Big multilevel place maybe built into a hillside; about five unused stories. Top floors are empty creepy bedrooms. All the action and furnishings are on the next to lowest level which has a big backyard. There's a party going on, random dudes milling about.

Two Wolfhounds - along with my Poogle I had two huge serious silver dogs.

Everyone gets two Freebies

This falls under the broad category of ' I'm not in charge of the world but what if I were'....

Everyone gets to kill any two people they want - for free - no criminal repercussions at all,
Please, think this through with me, okay?

If limited murder was legal; It would lead to a reduction in violent crime. It would be a strong deterrent against heinous damaging crimes like sexual and domestic abuse.
It would discourage social misbehaviors large and small; from road rage to Ponzi schemes.. Someone might just decide to use his 'freebie' because you let your dog crap on his lawn. Wouldn't that be a shame?
The Revenge Factor
Revenge, vengeance, vendettas, vigilantism, gettin' some satisfaction. Paybacks are a bitch
This is a deep rooted passionate human ethos.
It is part of who we are and how we have evolved.
Don't kill anyone, ever; turn the other cheek; forgive. This is a lie, a repressive social lie disguised as a commandment from god.
{It does not keep the people in power from killing whomever and as many as they want}
Sometimes it's all right to kill. Sometimes you got to fight when you're a man.

There's gonna be a bloody melee at first.
Most of the wrongdoers, vengeance-minded and the sort to carry a grudge will kill each other off early. Prisons will empty themselves out. Police detectives will have fewer crime investigations and unsolved cases "yeah, it was me, I killed the sonofabitch and let me tell you why..."
The remaining majority of people will be less likely to start trouble in the first place. This will result in natural selection favoring people who are not assholes.

The truly meek and benevolent could save their freebies for assisted suicide for the terminal and suffering if they wanted, or not use them at all.
These freebies are not transferable. You get your two, and that's it. If you go over your allowance, it becomes a criminal matter punishable in one of the ways we already employ.

There are way too many goddamn people shitting up this planet, dying of diseases and killing each other anyway. Think of the two freebies as an induction phase, a jump start toward a sustainable civil population.
The end result would be fewer people, making a sincerely motivated effort to be nice.

Wishing you Peace on Earth.
TS

"I'm tryin', Ringo. I'm trying real hard to be the shepherd". ... - Jules

Blue

I finished the old year with a good deed and a new friend.

I am blue often.
When I am able to accept my flaws, i will turn them into shining things that other people will wish they had.

I will love myself fiercely, completely as I love/hate everything around me. It is time to draw more of that energy into my life. {passion}

I have lost a lot of good days comparing myself to others, trying to compete with what I am not.
My goal this cycle is to quit compromising and be me. There may be some killing involved.

I started the new year with a cup of coffee; my feet in the ocean; the dogs running around.



-Don't walk before me; I may not follow
don't walk behind me; i may not lead
just walk beside me and be my friend.
TS

Beer Pong and Disease

The local Von's is selling PING PONG BALLS IN THE BEER COOLER, right next to the malt liquor.

I really should love this. Beer pong is fun. I live in a progressive society where the retailers make it convenient to buy all the supplies for drinking games in one easy to find place in the store.

There is a dark side to this. It is the H1N1 Virus.

The Swine Flu will spread through college communities; killing off the bright young minds of our future. {leaving me to rule in their absence}

So young, so full of potential. So Why did he drink beer from a plastic Solo cup that had a ping pong ball floating in it that had just been on the floor, in Dirty Bob's hand, in Stacia's ass crack and in every other identical Solo cup in the frat house?

" the idea is to die young as late as possible"-
Ashley Montaqu

TS

Knights and Zombie Politicians

Flesh eating zombies, who apparently had been elected officials at sometime (I didn't vote for them) were getting in our way. They only came out at night, or if someone made loud noises. It was very inconvenient trying to get from point A to B having to avoid zombie politicians. There was a woman with us about to have a baby and we were looking for a good safe place for her to chill for a couple days.
Later in another part of the dream there was a young guy; a Youth. Dunno, maybe 17 or 18. He enlisted to help me with some errand / quest i was on. We both had horses, big sleek warmblood hunter types and we were riding off to do something important. He told me he had worked as a ski instructor before and was on his way to Harvard next year.